Sunday, May 31, 2009

PRAYER

So.

I've decided that I don't pray nearly as much as I need to.

That's about to change.

After my frustrating post on Friday, which came after a long week, after a long month, after a long 1/4 of a year, I just felt worn out. So worn out I can't even tell you. It seemed like this started probably a week BEFORE Mike left the stress, each day, gradually built on the one before. As you probably know from reading my blog, I've had good days and rough ones. Days where I have rejoiced over lessons learned and days where I just thought I was being punished for something.

Saturday, in a matter of 4 hours or so, it all left. Four months worth of (again) stress --for lack of a better word... gone!

Gone.

By Saturday afternoon I felt like myself: energized, motivated, happy, funny, ambitious, joyful, mischievous.

It was the best thing that's happened in a long time.

And

I'm

pretty

sure

it was because of you.

I am convinced that people were praying for me.

There is no other way to describe it.

If you could understand the before and after feelings you would believe it too.

I don't know a lot about depression, but I know that sometimes it is hormonal and you can't do much at all about it. I also think that you can allow yourself to wallow in self-pity and "become" depressed. I'm pretty sure I've been working hard to not fall into the latter category, I've been quite honest on here and so you can see from my posts where my heart has been over the last months.

Maybe I wasn't watching myself close enough and I was becoming self-reliant and letting enough discouragement seep into my soul that put me in that mood/mindset.

Probably. It's probably my fault.

Nevertheless, I've felt so so good yesterday and today.

I'd love to see who has been praying for me, so if you don't mind posting a comment saying who you are, I'd love it!

Thank you so much. Please continue. Give me three more weeks!

4 comments:

Jenkins Jollity said...

I always am friend :)

Anonymous said...

Mema is ALWAYS thinking of you

Anonymous said...

Becca, we have all been praying for you and having our church pray for you as well.
I love ya!
Sarah H.

Cinda Boshart said...

Of course your mama is...so glad you're better.